leaving a room

I understand that every relationship will face conflicts and arguments. Noone can expect two people from different background and different experience can fit so well and communicate so clearly. When there is a conflict, there is an exchange of thought. If both can get over it and understand each other, the level of getting knowing each other would enhance. Recently I am having some hard time. My bf gets frustrated so easily. Actually we are both lovely and knowing what we want in a relationship. However we both stress out. 1 hour ago we were being lovely watching tv at home. I was asking him nicely in a proper way to transfer some photos that he took to my computer. His first reaction is ‘I don’t have the photos in my computer. I haven’t transferred them yet’, with anger mood. It seems so troublesome for him to transfer those photos. Of course I am upset with him because it’s just a simple request. So I said fine if you can’t do it and walked away to another room to cool myself. Then he shouted and said that I changed my notebook’s setting. He came to me and said “MOVE”. I responded “Can you speak nicely. There’s way to get thing done. I don’t need this shit on Sunday when I need to relax” However he still piss. Anyone can take this or know how to handle this? Tell me how. I got scolded and stress for being nice?! All this while, I have been putting so much effort in him. Helping him with whatever I can and what I get in return is non-understanding. So I took my notebook and left the house. Driving and thinking..Questioning myself. I feel there’s no way to get myself down and upset because it won’t help at all. He won’t call and say sorry or do something to make me feel better. So why should I let myself down? I don’t need to expect anything from him. I just don’t feel I deserve to be treated like this. I give my best and if you think you are all right and not feeling sorry for what you have done. Then I have to say it’s not my problem. It’s your problem.

clear my mind

I don't know what's wrong with me since last 2 months until now. I have been losing appetite and losing weight. It's so obvious that everyone is asking me if I lost weight and what happened to me if I am on diet or eating diet pills. I said no. I am not on diet. I am not eating any diet pills. I am fine but not too well. Probably part of the reason is because I have changed a new job, adapting a new environment and things are still new to me and not what I expected. On top of that which most probably the main reason is I am feeling insecure and lack of confidence from my r'ship. Have felt insufficient tenderness from him and therefore feeling heart ache where I can't sleep well for many nights. My bf has been more busy since he started his new job and I notice his behaviour has changed in certain way. I don't feel good about it but I don't know how to tell him. We don't talk about things so much anymore, even sometimes I really need someone to talk to and he is just too tired and slept. Or maybe he is feeling stress too where we can't even talk about it. Leaving a heavy stone inside my heart... I am facing insomnia. Many sleepless nights. Seeing him so busy at work makes me feel losing out. I need more motivation to go through this hard time. I need some help. I want to go to some island to clear my mind.